Urgent Care by Wil Triggs

Nowadays even an emergency requires an appointment. You may go to urgent care if there’s no urgency involved, and you can schedule ahead. Suppose you did wind up in urgent care . . . 

The Visit
The nurse was nice enough. Maybe I was reading too much into the way he looked away, his mask tight on his face covering both mouth and nose, gloves on his hands. 

I bet he’s sick of doing this. He took my temperature, blood pressure, weight, height, all the normal things they’ve always done, but this time the fever thing took on a new layer of meaning.

Before any other treatment could be pursued, he explained, they had to run the test.

I knew it. 

It’s ok, I said, reassuringly. My wife really insisted that I come and get checked out.

It must be hard with this pandemic, I commented and then I thanked him.

No problem, he said. It’s not just us. It's happening in other parts of the world. Have you seen what’s happening in Brazil?

I guess so, I said. I mean, not really. I guess I haven’t been keeping up with any news, good or bad. For some reason I didn’t reveal to the nurse what my wife had dubbed my obsession with the news—on the lookout especially for good news about this global condition. I didn’t want to appear naive or ignorant about life.

Lots of bad news all round these days, he said, but I wasn’t sure if he was talking to me or himself, so I didn’t reply.

He took a blood sample and told me it would be awhile before anyone would come back and left the room. 

So, I waited.

Bored, I looked at the poster on the wall: Symptoms to watch out for.

I didn’t really want to read them, so I averted my eyes. But after another five minutes, well, I had enough. No one was coming back any time soon. I stood up and walked over to the poster. I had to admit that I was more than a little curious. Did I have it? I figured a self-check was in order.

Symptoms to watch out for 
Inaudibly talking to a person or a force you cannot see.

Thinking of others as more significant than yourself.

Believing that you don’t have the final say in most things.

Believing that your life has started over, new, fresh, changed.

Gathering with people you don't know that well. Revealing things about yourself to them. Asking for help.

An alarming tendency to give away things to people who need help—money, food, clothing, sometimes in extreme cases, cars or even homes. Some even give their lives.

The list went on…

Beware: symptomatic or asymptomatic people may find themselves acting out in unorthodox ways

Allowing spit and dirt mixed into mud to be applied to blind eyes.

Casting your net on the other side of the boat.

Touching the hem of his garment.

Reading the same book over and over for years and expecting it to change you.

Selling everything and following him anywhere.

Laying down your life for your friends.

Believing that there’s nothing you can do to make yourself better.

Receiving atoning blood to cover your sin-stained soul.

Attempting to spread this sort of virus to others no matter the consequences.

By the time I was done reading the warnings, my heart was racing. What if this was happening to me?

The Diagnosis
Finally, the nurse came back into the room.

I was fine. The test came back negative. He seemed relieved. The doctors are busy treating others, he explained. And since you’re in the clear, you won’t even need to see one. We don’t want to waste their time.

You’re sure, I asked. Everything is fine?

It’s a pretty accurate test. Don’t feel bad. Your wife was right to send you in. It’s always a good idea to get checked. You don’t want to mess around with this stuff.

Okay, I said. We both stood up and he actually handed me the paperwork, which under the circumstances, surprised me.

There's a list of symptoms with your paperwork. Keep an eye out. Come back anytime for another test. Just because you're negative today doesn't mean you can't be infected tomorrow. So be careful.

You’re free to go, he said, and then thanked me for coming in and wished me a good day. Obviously, we did not shake hands.

From Voice of the Martyrs (actual reports from 6/18/2020)
Authorities in Wuhan seized the pastor of the Nanjing Road Church on Saturday, May 30, during an online Christian gathering. The day-long event, which was dedicated to church planting and evangelism, was being held online because of the pandemic. Police arrived at the church around noon and detained Pastor Luo, who was interrogated for more than four hours before being released. During the interrogation, Luo told the officials how Christians have been serving their communities in Wuhan during the pandemic.

Christian workers in Turkey report that restrictions and changes caused by the global pandemic have hit Iranian refugees hard. Many of the Iranians lost everything when they fled their country because of persecution for their Christian faith. And now, many have lost the low-paying jobs they had obtained in Turkey and are struggling to feed their families. In addition, they have little access to health care because the basic medical care provided to refugees has been stopped. “Some of our students who are unwell have avoided seeking medical treatment and are now in a critical situation,” a Christian worker wrote.

In central Asia, when a young boy got extremely sick, a front-line worker in the village accompanied him and his family to a hospital. While in the waiting room, the 10-year-old began to cry at the thought that he might be permanently confined to a wheelchair. The front-line worker then prayed for his healing, and within minutes the boy was able to walk again, surprising the front-line worker. But when the boy told his Muslim father that Jesus had healed him, he grew angry. “Never say that again,” his father told him. “It was Allah and his prophet, Muhammad, who healed you!” The boy’s father is afraid their relatives will shame them, but the boy is determined to tell everyone what happened to him. 

God, give me this fever. Please may I never be cured. To live this day. To point others to you. To serve you till my very last breath.

Praise him for his mighty deeds; praise him according to his excellent greatness! Let everything that has breath praise the Lord! Praise the Lord! (Psalm 150:2, 6) 

Firm in Heaven

A lot of words have been spoken, written, recorded, tweeted, retweeted, posted, shared or deleted of late. God's Word—that eternal Word that stands in heaven—was what prompted the question we asked last week: What's one particular Scripture that has hit home for you during this crazy time?

Be encouraged as you read today's musing.

What a great question! I am thankful that the Lord's mercies are new every morning, just for today. Tomorrow the Lord will give me new mercies according to that day. (Lamentations 3:22-23)
Karen Bagge

Memorizing Psalm 19. On January 5, Pastor Ben Panner shared that Psalm 19 is two books, verses 1-9 focus on God's glory in creation, and verses 7-11 on truths of God's Word. The prayer of verses 12-14 gives legs to my daily walk with Jesus these days. Amazing grace and love.
Mary Miller

Good time to revisit my very first favorite verse the night I came into God's family: Hebrews 5:13b (Amplified Bible): "for he, himself has said, 'I will not, I will not in any degree leave you helpless nor relax my hold you.'" Currently, the passage I'm looking to is 1 King 8:41-43. Believers need to repent and turn back to God so that the foreigners in our midst can see God and turn to him. 
Linda Murphy

The message of Amos. Thinking about what J.A. Motyer says about Amos 5:14-15: "This is no 'fugitive and cloistered virtue' interior to the heart or wrought out solely in a one-to-one relationship between the individual and God. Its outflow is in terms of a society founded and run on principles of justice backed by sanctions for the punishment of evildoers and the praise of them that do well. . . What a call this constitutes to Bible Christians to rediscover the moral and social teaching of Holy Scripture! How often our contributions on social and socio-ethical questions are small, insignificant, inhibited because we simply have not laboured to acquire biblical definitions of the issues involved! If we do not labour to 'establish justice in the gate', we shall be accused from this passage in Amos of a one-sided morality stopping short of the biblical concern for society, we shall be exposed, according to Amos 3:9-4:5, of playing around with a useless religion while society rots, and we shall find, according to Amos 6:3, that, while we have been unconcerned, other and sinister forces have been at work to enthrone violence and disorder."
Praying that we, the church, would repent for our sins of omission and its effect on the black community and persons of color. How do we commit sins of omission by not actively hating evil, loving good and establishing justice in the courts?  “A person may cause evil to others not only by his actions but by his inaction, and in either case he is justly accountable to them for the injury.” (John Stuart Mill
Karen Selking

Romans 12:12 (NIV) has been a good reminder for each day: "Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer." 
John Maust

Proverbs 4:18 (NKJV): "The path of the just is like the shining sun, that shines ever brighter unto the perfect day." What a beautiful promise for an 84-year-old who knows the Lord. No matter what, my life will just get better and better!
Joan Hutcheson

Isaiah 41:10 (NLT): "Don’t be afraid, for I am with you. Don’t be discouraged, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will hold you up with my victorious right hand." I actually chose this verse in late December 2019 to be one of my memory verses for 2020. It has been a daily encouragement to me.
Debbie VanDerMolen

John 14:6:  Jesus said to him, "I am the way, and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me." When I do not see a direction I can go physically, (being on a medication that leaves my immune system compromised,) I do see Jesus and move toward him. Currently I am in a study of the life of Christ to point me to see him, and see how as his follower I can do as he does in relationship with others.
Carole Ehrman

Psalm 33 was part of my daily reading on March 14, and in the 12 weeks that have followed, it has continually reminded me that none of this is a surprise to God, that God is a faithful promise keeper, and that it is only when our hearts trust and hope in him that we are made glad.
Kate Schlickman

1 Peter 5:7 (NIV): “Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.” My favorite way to remind myself of this is through the song, "What a Friend We Have in Jesus." It expresses 1 Peter 5:7 so well.
Sarah Lindquist

2 Corinthians 12: 9-10 (NIV)  But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong." This passage is a wonderful reminder to me that God meets us in our weakness, and this is certainly a time of weakness! His grace is sufficient. Always. His amazing power is made perfect in weakness. Let us not run from weakness, but rest in him.
Mary Manteuffel

Psalm 29:10 (NASB): "The Lord sat as King at the flood. Yes, the Lord sits as King forever."
Ruth Feldmann

Settled truths for our souls.

We Asked: What's Something New You've Tried During the Pandemic? And You Answered.

It's never too late to try something new. Here's what some of us have been up to…

Getting acquainted and making friends with neighbors that I never seemed to have time to visit before. I made meals for an elderly neighbor who lives alone and whose family resides in another state. She is 94, and we have become friends. Also, reading and learning about autism and language delays in toddlers.
Connie Claybough

I put out an Oriole bird feeder for the first time, after noticing that one was feeding at my hummingbird feeder. I have been walking one to three miles most every day since the lockdown, sometimes joined by a friend or two. I have also joined in on church prayer meetings during the week and on Sunday. These have been so encouraging to hear others pray corporately, and have ministered to my soul. I have also written some notes to friends and family to keep in touch and see how they are doing. Early on, my neighbor and I bought groceries for each other, which has helped me to get to know her better. 
Dawn Sadler

Raised bed and patio Grow Box gardening.
Nancy Tally

I have tried grocery shopping for the first time by ordering online and going to the Jewel pick-up parking area as many of you have done during this lockdown. Of course, until COVID-19 there was not a pick-up parking area at Jewel. Last Saturday, I returned home with someone else's order along with mine own. So for the first time since the "shelter in place" orders, I not only drove back to Jewel but also joined the mask wearing shoppers and went INSIDE to return the bags of groceries that were not mine. I returned them to a very thankful pick-up worker who had just been called by the customer who had missed the order I took home. All in all, you cannot solve problems like this without going face to face and mask to mask to get things wrong made right. It was also the first time I entered Jewel' as a masked man. As online and pickup shopping fades, it will not be my last visit to Jewel as a masked man.
Bill Offutt

A month or so ago, Jessica Hundley decided to film herself reading Karen Kingsbury’s Let Me Hold You Longer (ISBN: 978-1-4143-8987-5, Tyndale House Publishers, 2004) to the class of 2020; she couldn’t have imagined what would follow. Hundley, a library media specialist at Hardin County schools in Elizabethtown, KY, read the highly emotive book in an equally poignant way, and it resonated with viewers to the tune of 1.5 million views in the first 48 hours. The video, which has now been viewed more than three million times, is available here.

As a result of that viral distribution, Tyndale House quickly reprinted the book and sold 63,000 copies in the month of May.
Mark Taylor

My four kids and I have watched hours and hours of Ray Vander Laan videos together (all putting the Bible in cultural context, filmed in Israel). My 14-year-old son suddenly became interested in teaching himself piano and has been focusing on practicing one of Beethoven's sonatas this week. My 17-year-old-daughter is teaching herself Korean (my new job is flashcard point person). We are also regularly doing something called "family dinner." (Family dinners are not a new thing to us, exactly, but as a household headed by a busy lawyer, Regular Family Dinner sure is!) Finally, I am about to self-publish a book, although I can't exactly say this is thanks to the pandemic. I started writing it years ago. But it is still a new step, coinciding with these interesting times. 
Amy Ritter

I am always frustrated when I read a Bible passage and come across a word that catches my attention and causes me to wonder why the writer chose that particular word (this from a former English teacher). My usual modus operandi is to consult various translations to see whether they all use the same word, which, it turns out, is rarely the case. Then I'm caught in the conundrum of wondering which of those words most reliably conveys the author intended meaning. I've been chasing my tail like this for years and finally decided it's time to do something different. I mentioned this resolution to my husband, who attended a Bible school in his early adulthood, and we decided we would undertake a study of Biblical Greek so that we could read the primary text ourselves. I say this here so people who know me will hold me accountable for doing the work. Hopefully, by the time I emerge from self-imposed isolation, I'll be able to read the New Testament and know for myself what those attention-grabbing words mean. 
Patricia Edwards

Learning to play guitar and cooking authentic Mexican food. 
Rebecca Wolgemuth

Having a simple, online checklist of routine daily tasks plus seven once-a-week tasks. Once I've checked them off, I spend the rest of the evening relaxing.
Rebecca Fox

Making no-knead rolls. And blintzes. They (the latter) are crepes filled with a ricotta-cream-cheese-egg mixture, and then fried in oil and baked. Perfect lockdown recipe (so many steps, but the folding them up is strangely satisfying). Many of the new things I have tried involved starting to cook earlier, and even cooking more than I needed at the time and freezing some.
Vikki Williams

I took up crocheting again—for the first time since high school! I’ve finished one lap blanket and started on a baby blanket. 
Lyn Newhouse

Bananagrams. Tim and I have never played games together without our kids. Now, after 60+ rounds of Bananagrams, we aren’t content just to win or lose. The real challenge is to come up with words we’ve never used before: harangue, acquit, ziggurat, quixotic, winsomely, Kindergartner... 
Judy Sattler

Our daughter Hannah, a 2019 graduate of the conservatory at Wheaton College (Music Violin and Third World Issues), is living and working (remotely) at home. She is giving me piano lessons! One of my joys is singing (I only make joyful noises), particularly with others. I am not gifted with a voice that inspires but I love to sing hymns....and now I am learning to play them on the piano! One of the "traditions" we have always had is singing the hymns (that we had sung in church Sunday mornings) on the way home in the car. My daughter has a sweet voice and would set the tone, and I would joyfully sing along. Hannah is a wonderful teacher and so encouraging to me. She records my "recitals" after I have learned a piece, and sends it to two of her dearest Wheatie musical friends for my "jury" review. They, too, are encouraging and gracious in their comments. I am so blessed to be sharing music and time with my daughter. 
Christine Appleyard

Trying to find all the Wheaton alumni here at Shell Point. And  Z.....ing with our Life Group from College Church—one of the blessings of this pandemic has been the ability to "see" our Life Group again whom we hadn't seen since Feb 3. Getting carry -out fried oysters from Sanibel Island and bringing them home for dinner. Don't do it. They are soggy by the time you make it back home. 
Jan Barger

Because I can't get out to replenish my stock of copy paper, I've started to risk confusion by printing on the reverse side of previously used print-outs. 
Wallace Alcorn

My roommate and I baked Auntie Anne’s style soft pretzels from scratch (gluten free!) which required using a baking soda bath. They turned out delicious! 
Alison Tews

I have tried online exercise classes and have really enjoyed the daily routine and the at-home convenience! 
Karen Bagge

All Things New by Wil Triggs

Have you been missing things lately that used to annoy you? When I moved here from California, I remember thinking one thing I would definitely not miss were the six lane freeways filled with cars moving in both directions. Then came the Hillside Strangler and potholes and seasonal road construction. Pretty soon I was missing those toll-free smooth roads.

Living through this pandemic brings its own batch of little things we miss.

But before we go down the road of waxing nostalgic about the busy narthex or parking in the library lot, or those kiddie crafts week after week, or most seriously missed—standing right next to people in line for Sunday morning coffee from Commons Cafe, I want to know: what’s something new you’ve tried during the pandemic?

For a lot of us, the answer might be Zoom. But don’t reply with that. It’s not new anymore.

One new thing we’re trying in an attempt to hear from you is "the question of the week." We can’t see each other. We definitely can't touch each other. but here’s your chance to answer a question. We’ll compile them to share in our church communications. A different question every week.

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Here's the first question: What’s something new you’ve tried during the pandemic?

It could be anything. 

A story in The New York Times the other morning, “The Birds Are Not on Lockdown, and More People Are Watching Them,” provides one answer.

“Bird-watching has surged in popularity this year” the article reports. “According to the Cornell Lab of Ornithology, birders set a world record on May 9 for Global Big Day, an annual bird-spotting event. Participants using the lab’s eBird platform reported more than two million observations—the most bird sightings documented in a single day—and recorded 6,479 species.”

While it may not be new for him, I've been enjoying the photographs Marr Miller has been posting of the wildflowers he and Mary are seeing on their walks on the trails. That's Marr's photograph of a Prairie Trillium.

In my small group last night, I asked if anyone had been baking bread. I've read that many are curious about it. One person raised her virtual hand and told about a four-ingredient recipe she's using to bake her own bread in her instant pot.

So what about you?

For Mark Caldwell and Dickson Valley Camp a day-camp-only summer is a new thing. “We’ve done overnight camps for many years, but only recently have we done day camps. This year, it’s the only thing we can do. We have had volunteers build hand-washing stations [a pretty creative station as you can see below] and a hand-washing song kids can sing as they wash their hands. The hand-washing song is John 3:16 to the tune of 'Row, row, row your boat.' Our program was already decentralized so we have small family groups for activities. We’ve grown the camp through a network of families. We have a high number of non-church-attending families bringing their kids. People appreciate the Christian focus as opposed to other alternatives. We have a hundred new families a year. For those families, day camp is their new thing. As we get closer and closer to the start of this year’s day camps, questions are coming especially from the new families. The parents are entrusting us and the other families that we are taking the proper precautions.

“Everything the counselors say and do can show that we have a foundation that is beyond the shifting sands of society. We have a firm foundation beyond that. Camps are needed as part of the healing process as we move forward. From the kids’ perspective, just getting out, connecting with other kids and counselors, even with all the restrictions, could be a tremendous opportunity and so much better than what they’ve known these past weeks.”

Let’s pray for the ministry of Dickson Valley’s day camps—for the ministry to children and their parents.

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Pastor Moody asked us in last Sunday’s sermon to pray and share the gospel with one person this week. How’s that going? Maybe your attempt is a new approach. We invite you to share that. 

And if you feel like a failure in that department, take heart. We’re all just little pieces of the gospel chain, interconnected in ways that only God can do. Be encouraged by this video of a USC Trojan football player's multiple attempts at sharing his faith. They all seemed like one big fail after the other. Watch his story here on RightNow Media.

Remember that for some people, the “something new” might be God. Imagine that. Pray. Maybe God can use us to help point people to Jesus.

My Hidden Hoarder by Lorraine Triggs

It didn't take this pandemnic to expose my hidden hoarder. That distinction belongs to a low-wattage bare light bulb that hung in the hallway of our apartment in Moscow when we were there in 1993.

The first time it went missing, I assumed it had burnt out and maintenance would replace it. A couple of days later, the bulb was gone, burnt out again? Or more likely removed by another apartment dweller for his entryway, my husband pointed out.

Every evening when we returned from a full day of ministry, I stepped off the elevator, turned down the hall and either breathed a sigh of relief—the light bulb was still there or grumbled because it was gone again.

Strangely enough, I wanted to hoard light bulbs. Why? Well, I never knew night by night whether of not there would be a light bulb there. And by the time we got home, I was tired and didn't want to be missionary flexible. I wanted the light bulb in the socket and shining bright.

It got to the point where I needed a stack of them right inside our apartment door, ready to give one to the woman who zealously guarded the entrance to the apartment building, and apparently, our light bulb as well. We overhead her agruing with someone about the Americans one day, and after that, our bare light bulb stayed put. I guess no one messed with that Babushka. So my hoarder when back into hiding.

But here we are in the middle of this pandemic.

And I find that my hidden hoarder is fond of hoarding more than light bulbs or flour. Under normal cicumstances, two dozen eggs would seem like a lot, but these days, well, you never know, do you? 

And as I think back to the light bulbs on the other side of the world, I realize that there are other kinds of hoarding. I can easily hoard my time, somehow making "me-time" sound spiritual instead of selfish. I turn my focus inward. Well, I self-justifiy, I don't want to burnout or run out of energy, money, light bulbs.

To make things last longer, I tend to fall into a mindset of rationing. Don't use too much of whatever...

If I use less, what I have will last longer. A little goes a long way. Why did I throw out my More with Less Cookbook from the Mennonite Central Committee?

But God doesn't work that way.

A portion of one of the prayers in Wendell Hawley's book A Pastor Prays for His People says: 

Praise be to God, we are never placed on some “quota” system—
You have never said to any of your beloved,
“That’s all the grace you get, lest I run out.”
No, never . . . never!

From his overflowing kindness and abounding grace and mercy, God invites my not-so-hidden hoarder to a feast.

Come to the table and dine. Taste the immeasurable riches of his grace. And that inner hoarder of my mine dwindles under the lavish goodness of God. Goodness that knows no bounds and can't be stopped by any germ or my miserly approach to light bulbs or kindness. When soaking in the light, you don't really need a light bulb anyway.

In this feast, in this light, I am renewed, refreshed and restored.

The Widow's Mite and The Missionary's Joy by Wil Triggs

Jesus sat down near the collection box in the Temple and watched as the crowds dropped in their money. Many rich people put in large amounts. Then a poor widow came and dropped in two small coins. Jesus called his disciples to him and said, “I tell you the truth, this poor widow has given more than all the others who are making contributions. For they gave a tiny part of their surplus, but she, poor as she is, has given everything she had to live on.”  (Mark 12:41-44, NLT)

Jesus’ observation seems almost absurdly out of step with our world. I mean, what financial planner would tell the widow to give the way Jesus praised her for giving? We don’t expect that kind of giving. It isn’t wise, not to mention that her two small coins wouldn’t get her into members-only events at the temple or get her name engraved on a brick or stone.

Did she give because of the well-run temple? Because she liked the priests? Because of the beauty of the temple building itself? Or did she give because she knew someone who was even worse off than she herself? Had she been waiting to give until the priests did things the way she thought they ought to be done?

The gospel writer described her as a “poor widow.” Two strikes against her. She was the one in need. In just a few years, the apostles would focus on caring for people like her in the newly born church. And a few years later, the temple would be destroyed.

That widow was no more in step with the giving of her own time as with ours. Yet perhaps her greatest need at that moment was what prompted her to give, and it didn’t have anything to do with the temple.  

She wasn’t in step with the world she lived in, but she was in step with the heart of God.

When I served with Russian Ministries and we had summer camp ministries in Russia, I got to know an elderly lady, a retired missionary, who attended College Church. She walked her donation for the camp outreach to the mission's office rather than mail it in. She gave enough to send at least one child to camp. For her, this gift was personal and from the heart.

A few years later, I was getting ready to go on one of our STAMP trips as part of that same camping outreach. The retired missionary lady enthusiastically gave toward the trip.

She wasn’t a widow. She had never been married. As I got to know her, I realized what an amazing and unrecognized lifetime of service she had given to God.

But you kind of had to find that out along the way. She wasn’t interested in people knowing the triumphs of her life—and God had used her overseas in some amazing ways. Now, she wanted me to know that she cared. She was genuinely excited about the kids and wanted to give. The gift she gave was monetary, but a lot more. Her humility, excitement to be a part of God’s work and her spirit of service shined brightly.

And there she was, this time wanting to give her gift not to the mission’s office, but into my hands, to give to the trip.

There are many reasons to give or not give. But the spirit of the widow Jesus praised and this missionary who befriended me amaze me.

The widow Jesus praised wasn’t a parable. She was a real person. She gave real money, the last she had, to a real institution. She would be one of the people we would say ought not to give. But maybe it wasn’t the institution she was giving to at all, but the God of all things, her maker, creator, redeemer and friend.

Where did the widow get her next meal? What happened? Is there ever a time when it’s bad to give more to God?

That retired missionary lady has moved away. I think of her often. She had such joy when she gave her money away. I am confident that if she is still alive, she is more and more like Jesus in what she gives away. And that doesn’t even get at her faithful prayer support for us and many others.

I don’t think they teach this stuff in Bible college or seminary. But Jesus didn’t shy away from it.

Think of the rich young ruler who went away sad because of Jesus' admonition to give his wealth away to the poor. Think of the alabaster jar of pure nard that Judas, the keeper of the money, thought should have been sold and given away to the poor. He thought of it as a terrible waste poured out on Jesus before he paid the ultimate price and gave more than any of us ever will.  And he wasn't the only one.

We were watching a news program a few days ago and the talking heads were talking about how a second stimulus check may be coming.

Really? Probably not, I thought at the time. It’s such a crazy time, isn’t it.

As we watched together, Lorraine said, “If that happens, let’s just give it to the church.”

“Oh, yeah,” I said. “Good idea.”

I confess, while her head was going there, I was thinking about using it to get a new front door. If you saw our door, you’d know what I mean. So I don’t have it all figured out. But the spirit of the widow, and the missionary lady, I don’t know . . .

There’s something about giving and living the way they did that doesn’t make sense in this world. Yet their examples are a crying out “Yes” from somewhere that’s not in this here-and-now great and wondrous world, but from a different place than we naturally know.

Like a master washing the feet of his servants.  

Like thousands eating lunch from one boy’s lunch where the baskets of leftovers are far more than the few fish and loaves they started with.

Or like the empty net cast on the other side, filling with so many fish that the net starts to break. That’s crazy. I mean, why?

Most out of step of all, the king of heaven leaving the splendor and wonder of it all to be born in a manger, to die forsaken and alone, some of the last words spilling out of his mouth like the blood from his side, “Forgive them.”

Jesus, help us break the alabaster jar, whatever that means, and pour it out in worship—never looking back, not looking at others, only gazing at you. All for you, sweet carpenter, fisher of people, gentle shepherd. Master. Friend. God who saves us from the cares of this world and walks before us into today and tomorrow and all that is to come.

The Mother Who Chose to Die by Wil Triggs

A few years back, our summer book group read Bryan Litfin’s book Getting To Know The Church Fathers. I had not known much about the people featured in this book. So often I don’t look back in church history, and if I do, I don’t look before the Reformation unless it’s at the lives of the apostles or their contemporaries. Bryan's book opened up the people in between, people I never paid attention to before.

There is one person in this book who was not a church father at all, but a church mother.

Since it’s Mother’s Day tomorrow, it seems a good time to ponder the life of Perpetua, a Christian woman who lived in Carthage and died there at the beginning of the third century.

She was a mother, but barely. Her only child was just an infant when she was thrown in prison. After a time of separation from her baby, arrangements were made to get her baby to her so she could nurse and care for the infant while imprisoned.

Separation from her baby put Perpetua in great turmoil, but that was lifted when her child was brought to her. At that, “I grew strong and was relieved from distress and anxiety from my infant and the dungeon became for me as a palace, so that I preferred being there to anywhere else.”

Only 22 at the time of her death, Perpetua had to choose what to sacrifice. If she gave up her faith in Christ, and recanted, she would be freed. She could return to her family, raise her child, probably bear more children and live a long(er) life.

Her father put considerable pressure on her to choose recantation. After all, her baby needed her. He, in his old age, also needed her. These were natural responsibilities and obligations with family and the culture of the time. How could she turn her back on them for this religion?

And the government itself appealed to her maternal nature. 

“Spare the infancy of your boy, and offer sacrifice for the well-being of the emperors,” the governor pleaded.

“I will not do so,” she replied.

This exchange took place with her desperate father among the crowd watching.

“Are you a Christian?” the governor asked.

“Yes,” she answered, “I am a Christian.”

And with that, the death sentence was passed. Her father took his grandson, and she never saw her baby again.

The more difficult sacrifice was the one she chose. Dare we consider what our answer would be were we to face such a question?

The roles we take on in life, even those that seem so core to who we are—what are they in light of the eternal family? I don’t mean to downplay our families, my wife, my son, those dearest to my heart. What a terrible choice. But Jesus? Can he be tossed away for the call of home? Certainly there were others in her time who chose to do that.

I’m not sure who might be on your list of “spiritual mothers,” but I’m fairly certain that Perpetua would not make the list. Her story is so old and strange to modern eyes.

But she knew well the call of Jesus on her life. That call mattered more to her than her father or her child or even her own life. This is a faith worth emulating and a mother worth celebrating. May we never have to face such a choice, but let’s consider Perpetua in light of whatever circumstance we face today.

“Yes. I am a Christian.”

A Prayer for this Saturday by Wendell C. Hawley

From A Pastor Prays for His People by Wendell C. Hawley

Holy Father, God of our salvation

We take refuge in your divinely appointed sanctuary—

the covert, the asylum—

where we are protected from the condemnation and judgment of sin.

Once upon a time we did not care about our sinful condition.

Sin was fun, righteousness was old-fashioned.

God? Unnecessary.

Salvation? Irrelevant.

But everlasting thanks to you, glorious God,

friend of sinners,

rescuer of the perishing—

You tenderized my heart,

opened my eyes,

enlightened my understanding,

sanitized my desires,

directed my pathway.

And now the God of peace,

the great Shepherd,

through the blood of the everlasting covenant, works in me to do his will.

O let us praise God!

May the praise of your people never cease.

We gladly give thanks for your goodness, which is our daily benefit.

Your provisions for us surprise us continually.

Your mercies refresh us in every time of need.

Praise be to God, we are never placed on some “quota” system—

You have never said to any of your beloved,

“That’s all the grace you get, lest I run out.”

No, never . . . never!

We are promised grace for every time of need.

I shall list all my needs—every one—and still your grace is sufficient

Economic quandaries?

Health issues?

Difficult decisions?

Troublesome relationships?

Sinful allurements?

Failed plans and promises?

Unanswered prayers?

These, and more, we leave with you, assured that as our Great Shepherd

you will care for your sheep.

Evermore do we rest in you, O Lord, our strength and our Redeemer.

Amen